9.

Today was a very busy day; it reminded me of when I was in high school. I didn't really get much of a chance to "do nothing" but being productive felt pretty good. Finally the colder weather is here and my spirits are definitely lifted because of it. I feel like finally all the pressure that's been on me recently might finally be letting up. I don't think it's the permanent relief that will come with winter vacation, but I'm happy to have a little while to catch my breath.

I've always considered myself fairly perceptive, but never really thought much about what that fact meant to me. Now, I'm realizing that I may be doubting myself way too much when I have certain feelings about situations. This being said, I don't know if I like that. It seems like sometimes it's easier to be happy when I'm in the dark. I guess the saying goes "ignorance is bliss" and now I realize it's true, but not good. Being happy and knowing is being truly happy.