9.

Today was a very busy day; it reminded me of when I was in high school. I didn't really get much of a chance to "do nothing" but being productive felt pretty good. Finally the colder weather is here and my spirits are definitely lifted because of it. I feel like finally all the pressure that's been on me recently might finally be letting up. I don't think it's the permanent relief that will come with winter vacation, but I'm happy to have a little while to catch my breath.

I've always considered myself fairly perceptive, but never really thought much about what that fact meant to me. Now, I'm realizing that I may be doubting myself way too much when I have certain feelings about situations. This being said, I don't know if I like that. It seems like sometimes it's easier to be happy when I'm in the dark. I guess the saying goes "ignorance is bliss" and now I realize it's true, but not good. Being happy and knowing is being truly happy.

8.

I find it interesting that I am most thoughtful in these early hours of the morning. I have to be up in seven hours and I haven't even gone to sleep yet. Right now I'm experiencing the effects of being awake for 20 hours and caffeine. I'm excited that it's Friday and that when I wake up it will still be Friday and then the weekend is here! I feel a little bad about the lack of interest I may have shown a couple of people today. It was definitely not because I wasn't interested, but rather because I wasn't capable of displaying my interest due to my sleepiness. Yesterday was good, but very tiring. The weekend should be even better.
November will be here soon! It should be a good month; even though it wasn't so good in 2006, it usually is one of the better months of the year. Hopefully the short time I'll be able to go home for Thanksgiving will be enjoyable and I will get to see as many people as I can. For now, I'll keep going with the flow; it's worked so far.

7.

The weather is finally cooling off! It's nice to be able to wear a jacket in the morning and evening. Soon, we'll be wearing them all day. Today was a good and fairly productive day. I early voted! I think everyone should. I did most of what I needed to do, but didn't quite focus on some studying as much as I should have. I'm very slowly starting to talk even more with people I have recently become more distanced from; it really can be difficult though! I'm hoping to get in a good amount of sleep tomorrow; I see no reason why I shouldn't be able to.

6.

Well it's been a few days since my last post; I was out of town and without access to the Internet. Lessons learned? Well I learned that people will do what they need to do to get by and, even if I don't agree with how they do it, it's not my right to judge them or deny them the ability to do so. We have all done things we regret or that someone will disapprove of and it is my view that nobody has the right to look down on anyone else when it comes down to it. Though I never have judged people, I have historically 'nudged' the people I care about most to do what is right. But I've been thinking; I've never walked a day in their shoes and even if I completely understand everything they've been through and can relate and sympathize, I can never truly feel what they feel. Maybe the unseen burdens they have to carry are so heavy that these little things I have so strongly disapproved of are a relief that - when it comes down to it - they really deserve. All I really want is for people to be happy, and, even though I urge people to make decisions that will make (and keep) them happy in the long run, I can see how they need immediate contentment by any means necessary. Life is too short to spend worrying about the small stuff. As long as other people's actions don't hurt them, me, or anyone else around them, the most important thing is that they are happy.

5.

In these past months and weeks it is interesting to see who and how people truly are. I'm not talking about people I know necessarily, but people everywhere in general. It's very difficult for me to understand how some people can think the way they do (or, rather not think). I see people doing things that are so blind and saying things that can't possibly have the backing of sound thought, and the worst part about it is they can't comprehend why some people might not agree. I could write a novel about this topic so, to prevent a ridiculously long post, I'll leave it at that. I know I promised a funny story, and I will write it soon. For now, I'm very tired and will pick up again tomorrow.

4.

I really need to get in the habbit of getting stuff done and getting to bed by midnight, but since I'm up I guess I'll write. I have a funny story, but I'll save that for tomorrow. Today was a pretty good day. I still find myself easily distractable and am working on fixing that. I got all of my homework done though, and - despite a lack of understanding in a few areas - I think I should be prepared for tomorrow (technically later today). I'm really looking forward to cooler weather. I love the days when there isn't a cloud in the sky and the wind feels cold on your face even when you're in the sun. That'll be November.

3.

I constantly find myself dealing with situations relating to alcohol and drugs. I've never been pressured into either, but there's some sort of exposure (whether through personal conversation or what I see) everywhere I go. I'm not a prohibitionist or anything like that, and I'm not opposed to the use of alcohol completely (as I can't deny having consumed it before myself). What bothers me is the fact that some people feel it will make things better or it will solve their problems; it bothers me when people feel like they need it. It doesn't make me angry or cause me to look down on them, but it makes me uneasy and it makes me worry. Whoever taught them that it was an acceptable solution to any problem? And really, when has it ever solved a problem for them? If the solution to life's problems were as simple as a yeasty, ethanol-rich, malt beverage, I would assume everyone on earth would be living an unbelievably happy life.
Alcohol aside, my views on drugs are very difficult for me to fully explain, but - simply put - I am opposed to their use. I'm not so much opposed to their use because of health reasons (though that is certainly a good reason for opposition), but more so because I feel it eliminates the human need for natural creativity. I think it's sad that some young people can't remember a time they had fun without the use of chemical assistance. Maybe I'm sheltered, but I think there are so many ways to enjoy life naturally. And if life gets tough, covering up the problem will not cause it to be solved.
These things don't anger me, but they do make me depressed sometimes. I've accepted the fact that it's just the way things are and that they will probably get worse as my life progresses, but I can't help but to be bothered by it. At least I can say that my fondest memories were a product of my mind and being with my friends/family and nothing more.

2.

So as I stumbled half awake down the sidewalk to my first class this morning, I saw up ahead of me two old men lunging at people with something in their hands. I noticed that most of the people raised their hand, declining whatever these men were so urgently offering to them. As I got closer, I realized they must be religious people and when I was almost to them I realized they were handing out little, green pocket bibles. I guess I didn't realize how intense the barrage was until I came closer to the men and tried to quietly pass between them unnoticed. It was probably just slightly less disturbing than a mugging would be as the bible man bounded 20 feet in less than a second to wave his little green book in my face. I kindly waved my hand to decline and kept walking. Continuing, I noticed another man literally blocking the door to Starbucks with his box of the same green books. I guess he figured nothing goes better with coffee than cream, sugar and God. Despite his insightful thoughts, I didn't see one person actually accept his holy offer. I safely made it to class and half forgot about these guys until I was on my way to my next class and saw yet another one standing right in the middle of the only possible path to where I had to go. Luckily he was busy assaulting other victims and I was able to scrape by behind him. In my next class - discussing the situation with my friend - I realized that I should have taken advantage of such an opportunity. I realized that if I were to pass by these guys 100 times, I could potentially collect a hundred of these little green books. If I had then sold them for $1-a-piece, I could've earned 100 bucks!!! What was I thinking? Next time I will be better prepared.

1.

Another weekend gone by. This year is flying by so fast it's hard to grab onto a minute before it passes. It's interesting how much has happened this year and how much has changed (not only in my life, but in the world in general). I find myself becoming so enveloped in work that I am losing contact with almost all of my friends that aren't immediately at hand. I suppose this is natural, but I think it comes partially as a result of my own procrastination; I'll try to work on it. At least with good friends it's possible to go months without talking to them or seeing them and when you see them again it seems as if you were never apart.

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Hey everyone, not sure what exactly I'm going to write here; I guess whatever is on my mind. Should be good!